I believe that feeling blue sometimes in a world that insists on being so troublesome is a perfectly normal response.
It’s not to do with a lack of joy. Many of my students know depression, yet they are the most joyful people, they laugh a lot and they see humour everywhere. They have an eye for beauty and they see and appreciate the small things. They are the gentlest people too, their friends and families rely on them for their kind steadfastness. They are often sensitive people, noticing when friends are in need of a hand, finely tuned to the moods of their beloveds, hopeful that they can help when help is needed.
If you are a kind, sensitive, gentle person who knows that joy lies in the tiny things that many people miss and who hopes to give as much as you can to those in need, or to work to spread more joy and kindness in the world, then it seems obvious to me that sometimes life overwhelms you.
You get tired, that’s all. Your gifts, so needed, do not make you a superhero - you can only do what you do in your little corner of the world, you can’t change everything. Plus, the internet lives and breathes on the dark things - why we click them more and make those guys even more money is something that someone will research and understand one day.
You need to rest.
You need to restore balance.
You like to be out, but you also need to be at home, quietly.
You need good food, gentle exercise and warmth.
Of course I will say that you need yoga: to breathe well, to relax your nervous system and to keep your body moving. It will help to restore you and it will help you to sleep the deep, restorative sleep that you need. Yoga teaches acceptance: fighting against the exhaustion, the descent of the dark, is just no good. It will only take you further down and keep you there for longer. There are rhythms in life and we can choose to flow with them or fight them. I recommend learning how to flow.
Look after your gentle, tender, joy-knowing, beauty-loving, compassionate, loving self. You will soon be on the other side.